even in college I couldn’t form clear possibilities about the future, immediate or distant.
same. I knew that I loved the present, and that I didn't want it to stop. but I couldn't come up with any "next", it was like looking in a magic ball hoping to see answers and getting absolutely nothing. I can see some next steps and futures now, but it's because I've had the chance to catch my breath and not feel panicked. sometimes I moan that I'll end up on a street corner with all my books getting wet (at which point my mom points out that I'll have sold the books off by then), but it's not true. I'm not going to fall in a black hole if I don't jump off this step in the next 30 seconds. *hugs*
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Date: 2007-04-01 01:55 pm (UTC)even in college I couldn’t form clear possibilities about the future, immediate or distant.
same. I knew that I loved the present, and that I didn't want it to stop. but I couldn't come up with any "next", it was like looking in a magic ball hoping to see answers and getting absolutely nothing. I can see some next steps and futures now, but it's because I've had the chance to catch my breath and not feel panicked.
sometimes I moan that I'll end up on a street corner with all my books getting wet (at which point my mom points out that I'll have sold the books off by then), but it's not true. I'm not going to fall in a black hole if I don't jump off this step in the next 30 seconds.
*hugs*